warning! seriously. some people might find the contents of my following entry a bit disturbing so if u think u'll be one of them, please leave.yea k today is a freaked up day. nvm. so went to meet up with anwaar syafiq and wei xun then did sum work. maths. ergh. i'll never not hate maths. then syafiq and anwaar left for tarian. oh wells today i didnt feel like going so heck. so i stayed on with wei xun. then he said he staying till about like 6 so yea i left. thought wanna go home. but then my legs jus brought me to the riverside at esplanade. yea. i just sat. blasted my mp3. didnt give a damn about wad other people think. all the memories just came flashing back into me. then my mp3 jus had to play pug jelly's ransom letter. fck u. it added all the pain to my memories. (oh yea btw i discovered that pug jelly's style of playing the guitar is all the same).
i liked ui loved ubut nowi hate ufck uu fcking just walked awayu treated me like i was an idiota fcking idiot who knew nothing about emotionsemotionlessmaybe thats what u thought i wasu never knew how hurt i wasi admit i fellnow i realised i might've fell accidentallywhatever it is, i fellbut i cant get up now that im downi thought u were therebut u proved me wrongfckoh wells. sorry bout that. jus part of my self-reflecting. maybe i've realised my mistake. i've been waiting here. waiting here for u. waiting here for u like a fool. i was a fool to believe that u'd come back. i was a fool to be waiting for u. waiting for u when u had moved on. know wad my mistake was? my mistake was never taking the crossroads. i came to the crossroads but i never took them. all i did was sit by the side. sit by the side and watched everyone in my life walk their different ways. some going the same way, some not. my loved ones. those that i hated. my friends. enemies. all. they all walked the crossroads. how foolish i was. now i've got nowhere to go. a big mistake i committed. now i realised. i hurt noone. i hurt nobody but myself. and nobody hurt me but again myself. i saw myself falling over my own mistake. falling into a space of emptiness. thats wad i am.
dreamingaway 3/22/2005 07:28:00 pm
